bron - started a msg for you at 7am, and still havent finished it!!

hugs to you hun.. it's so hard isn't it. big changes, after being w will for a year and then changes in your job as well. even if it's 2 days, it still is really hard.
i was a mess last night, i sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. im just getting so anxious and upset at going back to work full time, and leaving poopy at DC. i guess going in again yesterday to arrange a trial run for him next week made it all so real. he was very happy tho, he saw one of the carers, and wanted her to carry him. i was watching her, before i approached her and she was giving the kids hugs and all. but she's looking after older kids, and she's the head of the centre.
anyway, i was so upset last night. i felt im being punished by having to go back 5 days cos i didnt love poopy at first sight, i didnt bond w him immediately. i feel so guilty for that. i feel so guilty and stupid for wasting those precious early days.. stupid pnd. i cant imagine not being w him 24/7.
danni and shell - must have been so hard to have to go back to work early.
it's just so unfair.... even when he's asleep at night, im still thinking of him.
i dont want to be away from my baby.......