Babies Born May 16th ~ 31st 2008 #4

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Nikki- i thought there was someone else that mentioned the hasimoto's disease...

Also thanks... we think DD is a cutie too... i know its not really crawling cos she's not on all 4s but she does that everywhere now... I think i will have to either get a play pen or some barriers... She was almost into the dining area while i was hanging out the washing yesterday. i cam in and almost tripped over her... Next time i'll have to put her in teh high chair... she just gets around everywhere. DP complained cos tha was all the house work i got done... lol... I just lack energy lately... and motivation... every since we move into this house i just havent had inspiration to do much at all... doesnt help that i'm not getting good sleep... i need to drop some weight but same thing just can seem to get going... my own fault...need a good kick up the butt... I hate clutter but we brought what we could afford.... maybe in few yrs time we can look at a bigger house.... we idealy need a 4 bd room with seperate family and dining and an added room like rumpus or living room would be great... also a double garage... If i had of had an extra 50,000 we could have moved intoa bigger one but cant go back now... we'll make do with what we have everyone has to start somewhere... cant get that mansion straight away...

DD isnt sitting up... I mean she can in the high chair or on the lounge and can for few minutes on the floor but she doesnt seem to like it... she just pushes her legs and arches her back and wants no part in sitting unless in the high chair where she pulls herself up to sit.

Abb- People always ask how i am and i act like everything is GREAT... but the days where i cant seem to manage getting our of my PJs, where every little thing gets to me, where i feel like i could just scream or run out the front door and not come back is what worries me... DP doesnt understand... He sees being a SAHM as a luxury... like its not a job and its so easy... MIL is the type of person who had support when DP was young and with BIL there was a 12 yr gap and she was back at work when he was 6 weeks old and he was in care. most of my friends seem like supermums and can juggle so many things at once... clean houses, perfect kids, have time for mani's, pedi's, hair appointments, coffee trips with the girls... Me i barely leave the house, shower at 11 at night cos its the only chance i get. DS is full on and when DD is being dificult my skin itches and i just feel like curling up in a ball... Every visit with the CHN and GP i put on this act... I dont do it on purpose but it just comes blurting out "yeah things are fine... " With DP on night shift most days i feel like all day is spent holding DD so she doesnt scream the house down and at night when DP is at work i still have her and then the night wake ups aswell... i feel like its a 20 hour a day job....anyways enough blabbing... no point getting down about it... just have to get on with the job as DP says...

Well i finally got her back to sleep... I bet it'll only last 10-20 mins... So best get this washing on the line... BBL... I'm in no mood to clean up all day... so tired i can hardly keep my eyes opened.