jess: dont push ur self hun. ur not a failure if u go on AD's. it is better for ur kids to get better then to hold off doign anythign about it.
mine isnt really the home side of things it is more work. i went back so early and push and pushed myself i finally cracked.
jayda is doing the comando crawl everywhere now the kids r so excited until she gets into everythign they r tryin to play with or build.
today has been a bit of a let down. DH got me a watch and necklace even though i dont wear jewellery oh well atleast he tried lol. everyone else has forgotten i reminded my mum and SIL when they rang for other things this morning. MIL remembered but i got a sarcastic message that there is a present up there if we will be in the area soon. she is always dropping hints that we never go there and says oh if u r shopping u "could" drop in on the way.
I hope that you have a great day, have you thought about having time off to get your self back together. Because your family is the most important thing you should take care of yourself first. I know its easier said then done and i don't put my self first either. I really hope that you feel better soon and atleast you got something special for your birthday even if you don't wear it, men don't really know what to buy thats why i drop MASSIVE hints to what i want, as in the tell cody to go and show daddy this catalogue and show him mummy wants this lol!!!!! Well its the only way.
Jess jess jess well you really need to talk to someone about it so then can help you. I know its really hard to ask and when i first had abbie my dh's work was moving and he was working heaps and heaps as he was at work when we got out of bed in the morning and he was still at work when we went to bed at night. It was really really hard and i would put on a front to everyone that it was all ok, but would cry all day, send dh horrible text messages i was so angry at him although it was not his fault. It is really hard to do it all by yourself but believe me it gets easier and just ask for help it really will be the best thing you ever did.
Abbie is the same she is not really interested in sitting up is happier when she is rolling around the place. She can sit up but she just pushes herself backwards and forgets that i am not behind her anymore.
Yasmeenia went to sleep at 8pm, woke up at 9:30pm she had a quick feed and was back to sleep within 10mins. She later woke up at 11:30pm or midday and feed her again and was back to sleep. She woke up at 6am to have a nappy change and was feed, back to sleep. 'We both woke up at 10am.
I can somewhat relax now. Since I sat for one of my exam and deferred the other one. I am waiting for my unit coordinator to call me to see if I can sit for the exam. You ladies must be busy with christmas shopping. Happy new year to everyone.
After feeling exhausted all day i decided i would get the kids to take a nap and i tried to get a little snooze in but DS wouldnt sleep and DP wouldnt watch him while i slept so i just went in the room fell asleep... LOL... He can in about an hour later and woke me up complaining that he had to get some sleep so he could go to work... Typical... But i think i feel worse now... I tried to set out everything i was to do today but things never go to plan here. all i have done is tidy the kitchen and hand out 1 load of towels... i feel so bad but i just have no energy... DD is so demanding lately she's very clingy and is constantly sooking if i dont give her attention.
Tomorrow we have speech with DS which he loves going to but hates leaving so i know i'll be in for a fight on the way home...
The thing about AD is i cant BF while on them... and i am trying to get DD to take a bottle but she wont have any part in it... i love BF and its like my calm (occasionally) Usually that 1st morning feed makes me feel like a good mother... its the only time i really feel that let down sensation. When i had issues concieving my GP nd i spoke about AD as i was very distraut about the PCOS and all those issues but we havent really spoken bout it since. Its my fault for putting up the front that i do...
NaNa- Is everything ok... Hope things with Aadi are ok... how are his legs??? did you get the blood results yet??
Sass- I know i need to at least speak about it but the issue is no one knows there is a problem... I'm usually fine in front of people its mostly when i'm here all alone... i know i'd never hurt the kids its not like that but i know things arent 100% right well maybe they are and i just think there not... Maybe the things i think arent normal are and i'm worrying about things... i dont know... You should be proud that you ook that step... i think my 1st step is asking for more help... letting people know that there is some issues... Also Happy Birthday... I posted on your FB... hehe
Nikki- The thing is i'm not angry at anyone but myself... i see and hear about all these wonderful mums who work, lookafter the kids, manage time for cleaning and time with their DH's... i am struggling with 2 kids and housework... i feel lazy and like a bad mother cos i cant do everything... DP working is something that he has to do for money... its just the hour's i hate...
I think 1/2 the reason is DS being SOOO full on... its like his brain doesnt work... lol.. i shouldnt laugh bout it but its frustrating to the point that i think come-on turn your brain on and listen, learn and behave... add this ith some sooking and clingyness from DD and we have max stress...
I've been trying to say hello since Sunday arvo, but our internet wasn't working. Got busy yesterday, then logged on this morning, but only had a chance to catch up on everyone's posts as Cameron woke a little earlier then expected, then at lunch time I couldn't get into the forums for some reason. So warning this could be a long one
Sassy - Hope you had a nice day. Do you know when and if the boat thing is happening? Sorry you didn't get the best presents. My DH has no idea how to buy either, I usually circle catalogues but that doesn't seem to help. One year he almost forgot and went down the road like he was just 'picking it up' and bought a scented candle pack, had pot pouri and room spray also, it was rose scented and it smelt gross (and cost a small fortune). I ended up using the room spray in the toilet (only cause it felt a waste to throw it). I like Nikki's idea of telling the kids to tell daddy, can't wait til Cameron can talk now. Also I'm glad you spoke to your dr and got some help, hope you feel better for it now.
Jess - Don't be afraid to speak to your dr. Do you have a regular dr you see? My DH, mum, brother and aunty all have depression, and take medication and feel much better for it. DH stopped taking it about a year ago, but I've noticed he is a lot snappier lately and I can see the pressure getting to him as well. I've suggested he talk to the dr again, as last time it came about he had an anxiety attack at work and ended up off work for about 3 months. It was alot harder to control once he had hit rock bottom.
NaNa - Glad you had a good night out on your own and that Aadi was a good boy for your DP. Did you give him the sushi roll or just the avocado? Cameron loved avocado when I gave it too him a few weeks ago. Haven't done it for a while though, might do more tomorrow. Did you offer anything today? If so how'd he go?
Nikki - Cameron's not yet able to sit up. He is getting stronger though, and is constantly trying to sit up himself, but usually in play time, I sit him up and sit behind him to catch him when he falls backwards, while he puts his arms forward to stop him from going splat.
Abb - Glad you had a great night out and that Hamish was a good boy for your mum.
Girl22 - I actually finished christmas shopping about a week ago. This is the 1st time ever I've been this organised. Usually I'm running around the day before getting everything. I love not working. Glad you've got a little break from studying and doing exams. Now you can relax a little more over christmas hey.
Hi to everyone else, I'm running out of time. So I'll just quickly talk about us.
Friday was good, I had a good night out. DH and Cameron dropped me off about 6.30, and Cameron was starting to fall asleep in the car. DH fed him when he got home and he went to bed, only waking at 11.30, had a little Daddy cuddle then slept the rest of the night. I couldn't stop thinking and talking about him though, constantly checking my phone (to see if any calls from home and to check out my pictures of Cameron). I got home about 1.30am, which I thought was not too bad. I was good and drunk lots of water, so was only tipsy really.
Saturday DH took Cameron over to a friends house, so I caught up on sleep. Saturday night I finally decorated the christmas tree (while I was watching the santa clause movie - got me in the right mood).
Sunday we had some friends over who have a 9month old girl. Cameron slept most of the time, and this girl just sat in Cameron's high chair, eating or playing with Cam's toys. They were such well behaved children. Cameron has learnt to squeal over the last week, and I mentioned it to my friend, who said her girl hadn't done it for a while, then all of a sudden Cameron squealed then so did this little girl. Was so funny it was like they started to compete as to who could squeal louder.
Monday was my Dad's birthday, so I decided to go up and surprise him when he got home from work (about 30mins drive up the highway). Dad was happy to see us and so was my brother. Cameron always laughs when my brother's around. Think he knows my brother as the playful uncle. We stayed for dinner, then waited for it to get dark so the next door neighbour turned on there xmas lights. There whole house is lit up. Took Cameron over to look, he was fasintated with them. Think we might go to a nearby street (that always wins awards) that's all lit up this weekend.
Somebody asked about fathers in parent rooms - DH always comes into the parents room with me, though we always go to a cubicle when I bf (so does my mum). I love having someone to talk to. And last weekend Dh went into the parents room to feed Cameron while I was at my appointment, there were other mothers bottle feeding in there, who just chatted to DH (this one had cubiles for bfeeders). I'd mentioned after to DH he could've just gone to the food court, but he said it's a parents room and he is a parent too (so I just left it at that). I don't have a problem with ones where there are cubicles around, but wouldn't want a man there in an open room though (and I think DH would not have sat there like that if that was the case either).
Well I had best be off and get dinner ready. Cameron is asleep so will need to wake him soon too, as time to do the night time ritual (dinner, bath, bottle and bed) - tonight we are doing beef (cheating though - from a jar).
Well we've had a bad evening... DP was sleeping until 6 things were looking good. I bathed the kids and started cooking... DP put DD in the high chair in the kitchen and as usual i'm supposed to cook and watch both kids...
DD started screaming and i turned round from turning over the meat and DS had the nail clippers in his hand and DD's finger was pouring out with blood... He tried to clip her nails... WTF... i mean seriously... DP's on the computer i'm dealing with vege's boiling over, turning meat and this happened... I'm so ****ed off not just with DS but with DP for expecting me to be wtching them while cooking... He went off at me cos i wasnt paying attention...
Poor DD was screaming for so long even a BF wasnt helping. the blood wouldnt stop i kept putting bandaids on but she kept pulling them off or trying to suck on it... i eventually got the bandaid on and put her arm under mine so i could feed, gave her some neurophen cos i am out of panadol... she cried herself to sleep. i know i'll be in for a bad night she'll probably wake up screaming few times... I'm just so angry at DP... he blamed me for all of it and not once said he should have helped out... All i got was there right there you should have been watching...
DP's gone to work now... thankfully but now i'm ***** scared cos there was a shooting not far away and the gun man is on the run and i;m home alone... i know the chances of him coming her are small but OMG... I've never lived so close to something like this...
Bec- i do have a family GP that i've seen since i was little but its 20 mins away so i occasionally just go up the road... Sounds like you had a full on weekend... My DD squeels too... its cute most of the time but sometimes its a bit hight pitched... lol well best be off DD is screaming... and i'm tired as... Might let her sleep with me... Night all
Where is everyone... I must need to get off my butt...
Just thought i'd update... DD's finger looks a bit better... the bandaid overnight helped the bleeding and she isnt bothered buy it today unless she chomps on it. We had a rough night but that was expected... DP worked and only got home at 8.30 this morning... 13 hours after he left... So DD slept with me most of the night.
We went to speech with DS and then shopping and the parents room was being cleaned and had pipe issues so i thought i'd try DD on a bottle and the premixed S26 popper type milk... until i could get to somewhere where i could feed her... I was told off before for BF in the food court and being chrissy and being packed i wasnt in the mood for stares... well she drank it... wasnt even warmed up... she devoured almost all of it and now has been sound asleep for *checks clock*............ 2 hours... hope everyone else is ok... hope someone pops in soon... feel like i'm the only desperato posting daily these days...
gee, there was a time not so long ago that I was the bb-babbler and only Jess could out-babble me... but time gets away from me so easily now! I have been having The Nights From Hell, followed by The Mornings From Hell, followed by The Afternoon From Hell, followed by the same thing again. Would anyone like a monster-bebe? I have one going cheap. Just in time for Christmas?! hmm.. I'm kidding, really I am. Or am I?
Seriously, why did DS have to learn to crawl? And now he's figured out that he can get from sitting upright to onto his hands and knees and crawling out the door in less time than it takes me to go to the toilet! And considering I thought myself to be pretty efficient in that regards (having had 35 seconds to myself in 6 months...) that's a bit frightening.
We've been having such a hard time getting him to sleep at night. He goes to bed easily, after a bit of fuss, then wakes up every few minutes for an hour or more. Every time, he screams and cries and carries on like a pork chop till he's hyperventilating, but as soon as you pick him up he laughs and wiggles like a demon child. And then he does it again 3 hours later, and then 2 hours after that. This morning at 4:45 I was standing in the rain with DS in his pram, bringing the washing in off the clothesline. He was squealing with joy the whole time!! mental... then today at the shopping centre he starts squealing and screeching like I'm torturing him. OK, the muzak was pretty awful, but still... He's also decided to drop his morning nap, so all in all, I LOOK LIKE DEATH.
I wont even start on what state my house is in.
Um, blood test results... "something viral" is all the Dr could put it down to. Vaccinations is my diagnosis, and I'm sticking to that. Dr tended to agree with me, which was surprising. But DS is otherwise a healthy, happy, bouncing baby until he's hit with half a dozen live viruses in one hit. No wonder his immune system went haywire.
So aside from all this mayhem and chaos, I've been manically trying to get stuff sorted for our holiday, along with all the cancellation and insurance BS from our trip to Africa that isn't happening. It's depressing, the idiocy and incompetency you get from some people, and they have absolutely no excuse. If I can still remain coherent on the phone after no sleep and while being beaten about the head by a boofhead baby, there's no reason some dipstick airline employee can't process a simple request for a standard form. oh, but that's another thread isn't it? argh.
Enough about me and my mess.
Jess - OMG, you poor thing! That's so upsetting... I would have given DP a smack and sent him to bed without dinner. Yes, DP! I probably would have tied DS to the clothes line and hosed him down. I hope Tiahna's finger is ok, poor little chicken. Sent you a msg on facebook about all the other stuff. Be safe, yeah?
Bec - I just gave DS the avocado out of my sushi roll, being careful not to get any mayo on it. I mashed it up on my plate, and DP freaked coz he thought I was giving DS wasabi!! hey, now there's a thought... ooh stop that NaNa! wicked mummy!! I have just given him porridge (oats and millet), sweet potato, apple, apricots, cucumber, melon, broccoli, peach, zucchini, potato, carrots, pumpkin and some other stuff, I can't remember now... argh braindead... he loves green foods. But it all stinks at the other end, especially when he doesn't go for 24 hours (ARGH! TMI!!). I got him one of those "chewy sacks" (I'm going to call it a Munchkin coz that's what it says on the side of it!) but I made sure I got one that was green, not blue, because I don't want him to associate blue with food! Food is not blue, naturally, and maybe I'm being paranoid, but I've seen what kids are like after eating things artificially coloured blue *shudder*. Anyway, DS hates apple and pumpkin. He screws up his face and shudders like it's poison. I'll try some other stuff gradually, and I'm looking forward to getting up to QLD to give him some fruit and vegies that are home-grown by my mum and step-dad. He has avocado trees!
Glad you had a nice night out, and Cameron was so well-behaved! Wanna swap??
Sassy - Happy belated birthday (again! lol) I hope you're not too let down about the presents from your DH. See, now that's why I cancelled my birthday all these years! Technically, I'm still only 19 since I haven't had a decent birthday in that many years... Will you do something to treat yourself? I really hope things feel better with the AD meds and you can get back to yourself again!
Oh no, DS is screaming again... BBL! So sorry I prattled on so much already!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASSY
Hope you had a nice day. Do you know when and if the boat thing is happening? Sorry you didn't get the best presents. My DH has no idea how to buy either, I usually circle catalogues but that doesn't seem to help. One year he almost forgot and went down the road like he was just 'picking it up' and bought a scented candle pack, had pot pouri and room spray also, it was rose scented and it smelt gross (and cost a small fortune). I ended up using the room spray in the toilet (only cause it felt a waste to throw it). I like Nikki's idea of telling the kids to tell daddy, can't wait til Cameron can talk now. Also I'm glad you spoke to your dr and got some help, hope you feel better for it now.
hope everyone else is ok... hope someone pops in soon... feel like i'm the only desperato posting daily these days...
Will you do something to treat yourself? I really hope things feel better with the AD meds and you can get back to yourself again! 
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