sheree - thankyou, i could feel your hug, just what i needed. Sounds like lachlan is a very independent little boy which will be a fantastic trait in adulthood! Bummer at your honesty,means you are a good muma nd a caring person though.

kim - i dont really have an MCHN have rarely been there apart from the 18 month and 6 month checks. i have an appointment with my GP in 2 weeks time, i will chat to him about referring me to a psychologist, think i just need to talk about things that have happened in my past that i never dealt with. After my breakdown im feeling really good the last couple of days, always the way,. hope it lasts for a while. yeah i know the toys aren't girly, and i told DH his veiws were pathetic and sexist and asked him if he were a girl would i be able to buy her trucks and stuff (he choose to ignore that question) he said all i played with as a child was trucks and cars (his childhood sucked big time BTW, think he was just in an arguementative mood) he ended the convo by saying "you buy him whatever you want, just realise that when he runs straight to the girls toys at school he'll get picked on" what a d!ckh$@d! These comments really surprise me cause he really is a SNAG. i need to learn not to take things to heart! LOL at your nephew having a vaccuum at your mums! try not to feel bad for sending Darcy to daycare for a few hours, you are a single mum atm, you deserve a break! Gosh you sound like me regarding having another bub, im not a baby person either, love em when they can walk and talk. i said the same thing to DH a few months ago, Archie is still such hard work with sleeping and reflux, i have no desire to have any more babies. We are both happy with just one but are both open to having another one in the next 8 years if we want to. Maybe just tell yourself you don't want any more babies for now and you'll revisit the idea in a couple of years time?

leanne - well done on the excercise!

shazz - hi, i have no idea what you post said, but hi!

i am feeling much better today as i always do after a good breakdown. thankyou for your advice it was much appreciated.

Its my youngest sister's 15th birthday today so we are going to mums for a birthday tea and cake, its always fun when the four of us sisters and mum get together, doesn't happen often anymore as everyone has their own busy lives these days.