I have the p o o p s today in fact I feel quite down in the dumps and teary, and I am worried about PND rearing its ugly head at me.

We decided to bottle feed Joshua after about day 4 because of all the feeding issues with Katy - not to mention the little man was killing my nipples! - and I thought people were being supportive of our decision with that but now I find out that people have been talking about me behind my back saying that I should have tried to breast feed longer as that would have been better for our son etc etc. And today he is really 'windy' and unsettled and of course its 'because he is on the bottle'. grrr.

Then there's the circ. debate... I had a positive chat with my MIL about their reasons for getting DH done but when I phoned my ob's rooms to ask for referral information etc I get hounded from the receptionist saying that it should have been discussed and he should have been done while in the hospital and now its too late and we have to wait until he is 12 months old now. Hallo. while I was in the hossy I was not thinking about what to do with my son's doodle, and DH was looking after DD so I spent the majority of my time in the hossy on my own. Not to mention my pg was crap that circ. was not even discussed should we have a boy....
Apparently my ob is very anti circ, so she won't have a bar of discussing it with me, and now I am so confused as to what is the right thing to do and where to go from there. The receptionist made me feel so bad as a mother for even asking about the procedure.

Anyway, so I have made an appt to see our GP tomorrow for some more advice / referral details etc.

So if people are talking about me about not breastfeeding behind my back I can just imagine what my anti circ. family might say if we decide to go ahead with this. I know I should not worry about what other people think, but I do, and what it might do to my psyche is concerning me.

Sorry...... needed to vent.
L.



Am I a bad mother?