Oh Dan - :hugs: it sounds like you are absolutely exhausted and need a break hun. I know you have only just gone back to work though - is there any way you can get some sort of support? I know its easy to say but I'm sure Livvy will go back to sleeping for you. I found that Izzy has beeen pretty unsettled and it'slike she is catching up on time with mummy whenever she can get it - even if it is 230 in the morning. Sounds like Olivia is doing the same thing. Dont you dare apologise for your post either - you have every right to vent and you are doing an absolutely amazing job for Dave and Livvy. As far as being a mummy goes, is she loved? looked after by people that care? does she get a million kisses and hugs at the end of the day? does she have a mummy that is sacrificing time with her to give her the best life possible? Well Im pretty sure you can answer yes to all of that. Studying - mmmmmmm Im norty and say, do the minimum to get your degree hun.... sounds terrible, but I had a pretty stressful time in my last year of uni - I just scraped through, but my employers didnt care - I had 2 Bachelor Degrees at the end of it and they didnt care how I got them but I was a qualilifed teacher at the end of it. Sounds terrrible I know. I hope Dave is giving you lots of support during this time and if he isn't then maybe you could have a chat about just how difficult it all is. Al had no idea until last week and he has seen how tired I am and I have not cooked dinner once on my full days I get home after him, at around 630 so stuff that.
Im going to get off my soapbox now but I just wanted to let you know you are AMAZING, you are doing a fabulous job, even though you dont feel like it, but I also hope you can take some time out for you, Dan and for Livvy. :hugs:

everyone I will be back at some stage in the next month for personals...