Ohhh Lulu hun, I am so sorry things aren't going well. Lots of great practical advice above but just want to add that you should NOT stay away from here until things are better - we have all been worried and we care hun. I think of everyone on here as my friends, not the same as my IRL friends sure but friends nonetheless that will stick by each other. That means when things get hairy we aren't going to turn away or get annoyed etc but worry and help you through it... so please pop in and vent away, PM if you need to and just let it all out. I will never forget posting a pretty downer post early on when Iz was a few months old and a certain member (whose name starts with M ends in O and has abell in the middle ) called me 5 mins later to see if I was ok, and was here visiting a few days later to see how we were.... I won't ever forget that, and it was just what I needed to not feel so alone and isolated. Just quickly on the bottle, Iz was a bit older yes, but she wouldn't take a bottle til 8 mths hun and she finally did when I was at work, their little sniffer dog noses know when mummy isn't there and she finally took it. I know El is a bit younger but a few hours will give you a break and it might mean she finally takes it. Good luck sweet and let us know how you are going.

I'm sorting out clothes today and yep might think about packing a few bags to take to hospital (is it really that time?). Thank goodness DH was home because I was up for all hours of the night on the loo for some odd reason (TMI sorry ladies) and he let me sleep in, because Iz decided 630 was a great time to get up - after staying in bed til 8 yesterday, cheeky poppet. to you all, will be back later.