Lulu- Im so sorry to hear what a hard time you're still having! It makes me so mad to think, you are obviously begging for help then people wonder why some mothers are pushed to the edge. Maybe if we listened to them in the 1st place some horrible things wouldn't happen. Not saying you'll hurt your bubbas but just upset that people are brushing it off when your a good enough mummy to ask for help in the 1st place
All I can say is when you feel like you're at breaking point, just keep thinking, "It's not going to last, this situation will pass."
I find it hard to believe there is nothing that can be done for your situation, Im sure other mummies have gone through the same thing, I just dont know where to tell you to turn Im so sorry
Have you emailed, maybe Kelly from BB she may have some numbers and support groups that can help?