I am returning to work in 8 weeks and am excited and anxious!! I love my job (NICU nurse) and spent 3 years studying to get my degree to be what I have always wanted to be, a nurse. So, I am finding it really really dificult to keep biting my tongue when people, who mean no harm... i hope, say things like 'its a shame you have to go back' or offer their experiences 'i saw every milestone of my children and know that it is me that raised them'. That one really hurts I am returning to part time shift work, which to me, is much better for Brooke. My mum will be looking after her Tues and Thurs and I will pull a night shift on the weekends so my DH will be able to mind her while I have quick cat nap after as B will be sleeping while I am working. I'm not going back solely for the money, we do have a mortgage as does everyone, but I am looking forward to just being me, and not just B's mummy, although that is my greatest job

I am going to continue breast feeding as I am an asthmatic, plus, my mum will be having her so I am comfortable with that. I have her day care spot ready for next year when she is over 1 at the same school I went to, so I am also happy with that decision. Sorry this is so long but it feels much better to write it knowing that I am a good mum even though I am excited at going back to work to look after other peoples sick, little bubbies.