I really hear what you're saying Christy and I appreciate it, and in a way (without sounding up myself) it's like you're telling me what I already know but just dont acknowledge..do you know what I mean?
I dont know why i have such a big hang-up about evie being able to go to sleep on her own, i guess my SIL said to me awhile ago that she should be able to self settle now and even though i dont always listen to what other people saying babies should or shouldnt be doing at what age, i really took that on board. I worry that she wont learn to put herself to sleep and while I am sure that i wont be bf'ing a 10 year old to sleep i just worry that i shouldnt be doing it now and i really dont know why i have that worry.
I too would prefer to cuddle her to sleep and not hear her crying. In the night when she wakes up crying i have to feed her back to sleep and i dont give her the chance to settle herself back to sleep because i dont want it to escalate.
I just cant seem to accept that its ok to feed/cuddle to sleep when i know in my heart its what i need to do at the time. i feel like i just need someone to say to me it's okay to do whatever i need to do and i am doing the right thing....if that doesnt sound too crazy