gigi - i am so glad that you had a wonderful day on Bilby's birthday...sometimes the best celebrations are the ones that happen spontaneously. I hope you are wrapping urself in warm lovely hugs - you deserve it. Isn't wonderful when the fog lifts and we can actually see the beautiful things around us. I had one of those days yesterday to...and another today. thank god!

Aston has spent the afternoon playing with a balloon. the simplest thing has kept him entertained for hours! having been taking lots of video of him, playing and running and dancing and singing. He is so funny, and delightful... and cheeky little monkey!

looking forward to his birthday celebration next Saturday, but for some reason looking forward more to the one on his actual birthdate - his arrival was so special...and so very different to my previous births.

Nelly - darlin, :hugs: and lots of them... i know on so well that horrible feeling of the middle of the night can't breath...should I go to the hospital, shall I wait and see, make a bargin with yourself, if no improvement....etc etc...through grabbing a sleeping 3 year old, throwing her in the car into the mix as her baby brother and mummy are carted away in an ambulance - not pleasent. I pray darlin that he improves today - how is his eyes? if you need a vent, or even a cry hun, just pick up the phone. I wish I could come over and give you a hug for real, and let you go and lay down to recoup for tonight... hun i'm a feeling your pain