tara - :hugs: honey, your making a human being! and that is a glorious amazing thing to be able to do - but gees lousie it takes it out of ya! I'm turning 38 tomorrow, and are struggling with it alot...my mantra at the moment is that I have been a part of helping three human beings grow, develop, experience... and that is a wonderous thing... hard - but wonderous. hang in there hun. xxx