i'm amazed the bellybelly software allowed you to say TIT ajp! i put "tom **** and harry" in a post the other day, and **** was asterisked out!

Thanks for the congrats on the five hours sleep in two days ago - it does feel like a break through for us! that day she had 8hours in total - amazing for her.

Kim - no hon, i didn't get your email about the cups, jusdt thought you were busy. You poor thing with Chelsea being ill and so stroppy ATM, you poor darling. lots of counting to ten hey? that sounds SO challenging!

Vicky - i assume your endo is acting up hon? God it's never ending that damm endo, i actually hoped that women with endo would at least get relief after having kids - obviously not in your case, grrrr. So cute that Aston is expecting your visitors to still be there in the morning.

i want to go buy Haigh's easter bilbies (cos part profits go to bilby conservation) but it's so damm hot, i figure they would melt in the car driving home! this heatwave even makes CHOC unappealing! (can't believe a chocoholic like me could say such a thing!!!).

i dread to look in my makeup drawer next time i get dressed up, all the lipsticks will be melted and in funny shapes i bet. no point WEARING makeup right now, it just melts right off.

that's great, that you might have a chance to catch up with Blanche, NElly aka Tupperware Queen! Perth is lovely.

Christy - thinking of you, i wonder if you have gone to visit your mum already?

with the help of a supportive OT, who amused bilby while i phoned, i rang a child care place today, that DOES do ocassional care. I also rang Centrelinkn to find out about the CCB. wish i'd done this ages ago. Was finding the whole "visiting and choosing over 6 FDC providers thing" too daunting, so the OT recommeded a nearby CC centre instead, that she had taken her kids to, she also had no fmaily support, she's so understanding. Didn't crack up cos i hadn't rung ONE of the FDC numbers she left me with on her visit last week, she understands how overwhelmed we are. what a lovely person. She wants me to put bilby in two days a week - one day for me to rest, one day for me to get things done. Not sure i can do a whole day (without feeding) but anyway, something has got to change.

dh and i argued for four hours solid last night - about the upcoming SD visit - argh.

he was feeding bilby BOILING HOT scrambled eggs like night!!! i had to take it away, he would not see or admit that it was dangerous., bilby was screaming, letting us know it was too hot. i touched it with my finger, it was too hot for me to eat. in a small china bowl, so being ketp very hot. i put it in the fridge for 15 mins before it was cool enough for bilby to eat. of course by that time, she was too upset to eat it. i cannot believe he could do something so dangerous - and then when it was pointed out - heck we all do dumb stuff when overtired - he stubbornly stuck to his guns, wouldn't back down, adn wanted to keep feeding her with it! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

every three months, i know the SD visit is coming, we start fighting over space, unit is too small etc, i just want to run and i know i can't. got nowhere to go, no money to go stay in a caravan park, plus so many things i need fo rbilby are here.

we havne't heard back about the job interview - getting worried now - maybe that's why dh is so ****ty