oh gigi I just wanted to give you this

I hope that the hospital stay helps - for lots of things - you, your relationship with DH, feeling like you "winning" with Bilby. I dont think people really understand how debiltating it can be. I know when I had it after Nathan, it took me 8 months to actually admit that there was something wrong - and by then it was so deep seated that it took a long time to feel like the sun was shining again. In hind sight though, and I have been told this by several physchologists, that because I had not divulged any information to my care providers about my sexual abuse history that it was more then likely the first episode of Post Traumatic Stress. I often wonder if I had of been more forthcoming with information would my recovery been quicker? I guess hind sight is a wonderful thing that way!! I guess I'm telling you this to keep it in mind for yourself, as I know that you have walked a similar path to me....

christy - remember the days when 5am was when you were crawling into bed to sleep away the day... another lifetime ago...