no i dont think that sounds mean...i just dont want to admit that i need time away too. anytime i'm given the opportunity to some time by myself i'm always popping my head back in to see what she's up to and i'd hate to be away from her all day. when i went on mat leave in october we estimated that i'd be able to have until the end of feb off and ive had a lot longer so i should be grateful for that. i think also, that i kinda cant give up the whole baby thing. i always think about her birth and remember what a special time that was that i feel like going back to work will be really cementing it that she's getting bigger and that whole initial feeling is over. i know that everyday is still special but i guess i kinda 'grieve' over those first days. does that make sense to anyone else, or am i just a nut job