well here goes,finally going to do a debrief, i will try to remember what i can but may have edit if i remember more...
After having a not so good night sleep, i woke with DH at 5am and thought to my self if i go into labour today, i wonder if it had anything to do with my bad nights sleep!! i usually go back to sleep after DH leaves for work around 5.40 but not today so i decided to watch some TV. Around 6.30 i rolled onto my back and felt a squirt, more than the usual mucus, i wiped with a tissue and it was pink, so off i hobbled to the toilet where more leaked i immediatly knew it was my waters breaking, so on with the pad and back to bed to excitedly call DH at work to tell him the news, then called the hospital who told me to make my way in to be monitered. So around 8.30 DH and i arrived, placed on the monitor and had my pads tested for amniotic fluid. After around 1/2 was told it was probably my hindwaters breaking and i could go home with the hope of labour establishing it's self (i was strep b neg) but told if i was still at home at 7.15 the following morning then to ring as i would need to be induced, the only thing i wanted to avoid!!
so back home to make the lasgane i had planned the night before, went for two big-ish walks, had twinges, period pain but nothing major, strated to time contractions around 5.30 anything between 6 and 20 mins apart. Stayed like that all night some down to 3 mins but more like 6 mins still, had only 2 hours sleep, up and ready to leave the house at 7.15, phoned ahead and made our way in.
Again placed on monitor, drip hooked up and by 9am we were on our way.
this is where things get sketchy and i may edit later on.
Things got pretty intense with in the hour and by i think 11.30 i requested pethidine, could'nt have gas as my breathing was very rapid and would have coped.i was 2-3 cm dialated, never again will i have pethedine, i know it's ok for some but not me, though it was the RIGHT thing for me at the time, it knocked me out, i bearly remember the next 2 hours as i slept most of the time, didnt even touch the sides for pain relief and i asked for an epidural, which allowed me to fully dialate with in 2 hours though i bearly remember, still knocked out do remember throwing up but not sure when!!or in what order!! next thing i know i'm pushing. i pushed for 2 hours, so DH told me, with little pain relief as epidural had been turned off, the 2 hours for me only felt like 1/2 so i guess that's a good thing but i will never forget the pain and burning with every push. i had a delay in second stage and my Dr was called in to deilver but i knew that probably ment forceps.Sophies heart rate went down a few times which wasnt a concern, but was to me as my best friend had lost her baby there only 9 weeks before during labour due to a cord accident, so i freaked out.
i had three very compassionate midwife's there, one of which had been there when my friend lost her baby, so knew how anxious i was about this delivery. because i was going to tear it was decided not to wait and do an episiotomy and get her out, so on the next contraction the epi was performed and the head out, next thing i knew she was placed on my tummy for us to see what sex, i was convinced she was going to be a he, so i was blown away when we discovered we'd had a beautiful girl.
although i know this wasn't a bad experience, quite the opposite i cant compliment the hospital and midwives enough they where absolutly fantastic, there are things i will do differntly next time NO PETHIDENE i regret it big time. i feel as though it has robbed me of part of my labour there are many things i cant remember abpout the labour, which is probably a good thing but cant help but think iu may have missed precious moments after the birth as i was still groggy. i was havinga bad day on saturday and told DH what i was feeling so as the days go on i dont feel as bad. DH a i both agree that we did what was right for us at the time, but i still feel sad about missing things, but at the same time we know what we will and wont do next time. i just remind myself that despite all this IT WAS ALL WORTH IT holding my beautiful daughter for the first time and appreciating that i have her.
thankyou for listening guys i really appreciate it, you have all made me feel better over the past few days just making me feel comfortable in this forum.
love AJP
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