Oh Starrysky - it is completely normal hun....Neither of my c/sections were traumatic (although I was *****scared the whole time with both) and I never had any complications, plus I have 2 gorgeous healthy kids..... so WHY do I still mourn my birth experience. I know loads of people just don't get it but it is valid to feel that way hun. I wrote about my experience in my debrief- link is HERE and getting all the sadness out did make me feel better but I am a long way from healing. I don't think anyone other than women who have been there really get it. I also get so sad at people who seem to effortlessly have VBAC's, yet I tried so hard and still failed. Talk all you like hun, and get it out. It is ok to grieve your birth experience and where better to do that than here where we "get" it.

Olivesmummy and Hollye, and everyone else who is having trouble feeding.... Thinking of you both - having been there with Izzy I know the trials and guilt that comes with contemplating FF - you have to do what is right for you though.