Katones: I can tell you you're not a failure, but I always feel like a failure too. Why is this baby stuff so difficult?

I don't want to jinx it or speak too soon, but I think I might have discovered a bit of a breakthrough.

Jude's room has crap curtains and is quite bright during the day. I draped a red and black sarong over the mobile-hanger bar on his bassinet, so it makes a tent. This morning he went back to sleep after his 7-8am feed and slept til midday (and so did I). Then I went for a walk with him in my sister's hand-me-down baby bjorn and I sat in a cafe and had chai and read the paper while he slept. WOW.

When we got back I fed him again and put him back in the bassinet. He grumbled a bit but settled reasonably easily under the tent. I think the red and black is very womb-like.

Fingers crossed he sleeps for a bit now. I have some housework to do. Fingers doubly crossed this isn't just a good day and I really found something that works.