well hello everyone,
firstly OMG i had such a good time on monday,i really enjoyed all the noise and mess and happy faces,everytime i looked around the room i could see that everyone was having a really good time.micheal,al and dale all did so well since that neither of them really knew anyone and they settled in and seemed quite relaxed.my gosh i was definantly very ****y,all of our other friends and family thought it was quite ammusing cos i dont really drink but i polished off about 8 cans....woohoo!wasnt there alot of kids,was about the same ratio to adults.i think we had about 40 odd people there.i really really had fun,gee werent my floors black,HEHE!
i have had a pretty horrible day today.my boys were fart assing around all morning ,i had to leave for uni at 8.10 am and neither of them would get organised and i lost the plot.i smacked corey around the back of the head very hard 3 times then dumped him out the front of the school in the rain with only 1 shoe,no jumper,no breakfast,and no clean teeth or hair.i called him every name under the sun and sped off.then i cried all the way to school and through the first lecture cos i felt so ashamed of myself and just kept thinking about how sad he would have been,i rang grant and dobbed on myself and he was very unhappy with me.i left school early and waited for him to come home from school and smothered him with apoligies and kisses and cuddles and told him that no matter what he does or will do,no child ever deserves to be abused like that.he was very sad at school and cried for thye first part of the morning, a teacher asked him what was wrong and he told them about my bad behaiviour,i told him not to feel bad and that all children should report abuse because in some cases they genuinly need intervention.i am bracing myself for a call from childrens services now......
we also had a very very bad night last night with chantelle.she woke at 1am and screamed to get out of her cot till 3am,when she finally fell asleep harry woke up to be fed etc,me and grant got about 3 hours sleep early this morning as we had a meeting with family last night until midnight.tweedle are ringing tomorrow to assess wether i need there service and i am going to be pleading with them.
school was really hard today and i have an assignment due in 2 weeks already and it is huge,i just dont know how i am going to find uninterupted time to do it unless it is after 8.30 when all the kids are in bed but i will not be at my best mental capacity at that time of day.
tracey,chantelle spent all last night telling us all about the wiggles.once again thankyou so much for helping her to have that experience,i really am disapointed i didnt get to whatch her excitment and interaction of the concert.you are so lovely and thoughtful.
cindy,can you ask al how he feels about going to the essendon melbourne game friday night the 29th of june.
ok must go.
love ya nikki