hey everyone
just got back from mothers group.. it was ok, nice to get out but i dnt feel comfortable in new social situations hoping it will get better if i keep making myself go..
feeling really down lately.. feel myself getting angry at Asha too when she cries or gets up early/dosnt sleep through.. i am such a bad mum i am still really unhappy with my physical appearance and i feel like its been 4 mths and i have hardly done anything.. i keep losing weight but i dnt feel happy about it i feel like i cant excersise enough, the more i do the more i feel i need to do i am desperate to get a big loss on wednesday but i know even if i do the happiness will be short lived dp still dosnt have a job hes really getting to me i know if he tried harder he could have one by now hes currently in bed (12:15pm) because he stays up late, he claims so he can feed Asha and now hes refusing to get up because hes too tired, sometimes he just dosnt get how important it is that he gets a job idk i am just ranting sorry will come back later when i have calmed down if it ever happens