thanks so much for your advice everyone, sorry for my little freak out last night
i'm feeling much better today.

arte- i think i'm going to try your suggestion tonight of going back in there and not letting him out of bed. he just gets so violent sometimes and starts headbutting me and laughing!
i'm trying to get dp to put a tv in there so i can just lie there and watch tv while he drifts off.

does anyone else ever get a bit resentful towards their friends wanting to do stuff all the time? i think it's just because i'm pg and exhausted, but i just am starting to get a bit sick of friends demanding my time. my friend really wants to go out to lunch on saturday but i just can't be bothered. i feel tired even thinking about it. people just don't understand that dp works really long hours- sometimes 6 days a week, so on the days that he's not at work it's my only chnace to get a small break. sometimes i don't even wash my hair all week! ahhh i know i'm being such a whinger atm, you're right sherie- i am very drained.
i've got my ob appointment today. i am a little worried she's going to start telling me i have to stop breastfeeding lewis. i'm not 100% sure we've made the right decision in taking the ob/private hos route again. i'll have to see what she says today i guess.
i have found out about another doula- recomended by lulu2 from here. she is much cheaper than the other doula i called who never returned my call, so that's good.

jaz- i'm typing without the space bar still cos if you lift your spacebar off there is actually a small dot in the middle which works if you touch it right on the dot. very annoying when usually you can touch such a wide area and get the same result. it is definitely winter here, i;ve got a hot water bottle on my lap it's so freezing!

sorry for selfish post again guys, i'm being so bad lately!!