*Yawwwwn* Wow I'm tired. Went out for my birthday and a friend's 30th last night, didn't get to bed until 11pm and of course Alex's day still starts between 5.30am and 6am. Might sneak back to bed when he has his nap. He was a trooper though, went to sleep in the pram and barely stirred, even with music going and people talking and everything.

With the downstairs scarring, I'd definitely see a gyno. I tore and had stitches, but other than being a bit dry which is easily fixed with a bit of KY, haven't had any problems DTD. Other than being normally too tired and just wanting to fall into bed and sleep that is!

Lolpigs, don't let those doubts stop you from having the family you want. Kids are adaptable, Lilly will grow up having the attention of both you as her parents and her siblings as well - it just becomes the new normal. Personally I think having them close is better because you avoid all those jealousy issues that arise when you have a big enough gap for them to understand what they don't have anymore. But even then, ultimately they adjust.