Williever, it is upsetting not being able to provide enough milk for your child. I completely understand what you are going through. I've come to a place where I accept that he will probably need formula regardless of what I do, the bonus is he sleeps longer at night and I'm not the only one who can feed him. We have a routine now, I pump while he's on the other breast, switch sides then give him the bottle. He still loves the boob and it settles him when he's upset so I am still his comfort person. Kind of best of both worlds in a way and I only do a separate pump if I feel like it.