Hi All

Cathy- That's great about Cara smiling for you!! Jemima is doing it too, at first I thought it just had to be wind cos she began doing it at 5days old, but she has kept it up and more often, which is really cute it just melts my heart!! I asked the MW who says it's normal cos she was so late... she's as advanced as some 6wk olds. although that does make me feel like I missed out on a whole stage in her developent...

BG-sorry to hear that you have been having bad nights, although it does sound like last night was better 4 u, which is great!

KL- how cool the suprise of your sister coming home! and on your doorstep! I love suprises! Very nice!

Snacks- Glad your sleeping better! Love the way you came about your BB name. LMAO!

Naomi- So sorry to hear he's got bronchiolitis That really sucks!! He's just way to little! Did they put him on steroids like redipred or anything? Hope he gets better really quickly!

Kat- Sorry to hear your hubby suffering from sleep deprivation!! My hubby is struggling to cope with it. Mine is too! He didn't have the constant waking thru the pregnancy that I did which helped me cope now so he's really feeling it!

Thanks by the way for the lovely supportive comments from Kat, Vic and Raindrops and everyone else. I feel much better not feeling alone in that experience. I had a talk with my sister today and we cleared some of the air. She found it hard to cope with my birth experience just because it brought back so many memories of how she felt with her first... I think it has been hard for her not to prevent that happening to me... but it has been a learning curve for me. I learnt how I do and don't cope with pain. I also learn't that my DH doesn't cope with watching me not cope with pain. I hope to try for a VBAC with my next and hope the lessons we have learn't from this can help me to achieve that... we'll see.

Bella