BS - Its driving me crazy that I haven't been able to get out for walks (I walked everyday up until I finished work). Its been too hot. We have had cooler weather the last week or so, but I've been too exhausted. Maybe with a later bedtime I'll be able to fit in a walk once it cools in the evening.

I hope Eva settles down soon. Its awful when they're in pain and we can't do much about it. You're doing a great job and this will pass. Inviting other mums over is a fantastic idea...the more support the better.

beany - Yay for Michael sleeping well his first night in his cot. I can't even get DH to take an interest in childcare let alone schools. Its about time we had a proper talk about it though.

Alison - Amelia is definitely sucking on her hands a lot more than she used to, but she much prefers looking at them. She'll spend an hour or so at times just watching her hands as she opens and closes them or twists at her wrists.

suz - I love the new avi.

AFM - Thanks to everyone for your thoughts and prayers for my mum. I'm doing okay I guess. At least I have Amelia to keep me occupied so I don't think too much. It just doesn't seem fair. My dad died at 44 and my mum is only 52. But the night Amelia was born, she had a dream that she and Amelia were shopping for my birthday present when Amelia was about 4 years old. It's giving Mum something to aim for. As well as fortnightly lunches, we're going to go back to having Friday night dinner (which we did before Amelia arrived).

Last night wasn't as good. She woke at midnight for a feed and was really spewy at around 2am. I sat up and watched TV while she slept on me as she would scream whenever I tried to put her down. I took her to bed with me and we slept well from 8:30-11am. After the big day we had Tuesday I think I let her sleep too much yesterday. Today she's been awake quite a bit so I'm hoping that tonight will be better. Once I figure out nights, then I'll worry about her day sleeps. I'm getting there. I just have to remember my mantra from last year...to be kind to myself.

I found out today that the girl who replaced me on one of my projects at work is leaving in March. Her husband got a job in Melbourne. So it looks as though I'll be able to get back on that project when I return to work. Before I left, my boss indicated that it would be unlikely for me to go back (not really fair to train someone and then kick them off to another project 6 months later). Going back to work will be much easier if it's something I'm familiar with. As exciting as doing something new would be, I think it'd be daunting while adjusting to being a working mum. Also, the people on that project have all been very supportive through my miscarriage and depression. I know I'm not going back for months yet, but its been weighing on my mind.