Been trying to get a post up for days now - Up at 5am for a feed and Eva is back down so I'll get it in now !
There are a bit too many for me to answer everything - too tired! but I'll do my best!
Carmey, DH and I have sort of started getting the sexy time going again (Only funny if you've seen Borat)...We are at about 3 times a week or so (this is average, so some weeks it is more like once!). But that is nothing like before...I was a once a day girl. Just too tired and feeling unatractive in general. DH says I'm ridiculous too but I still feel like that. It is hard to go through these shifts with our body and lifestyle and I think our DHs also need to adjust - i mean they watch us breast feed and give so much of our bodies to our babies, that maybe they need to readjust or get used to seeing us sexually? In any case, past few days I've been feeling the sex drive coming back up, so hoping to get back into the swing of things too...MY DH wants it all the time and I tend to want it less these days, but I feel that changing with the weather...
I understand you though - I feel a lot less feminine and sexy these days, and not having any sex would probably make me feel worse...This whole experience is hard on the body and seriously changes the dynamic of the couple. But maybe DH is also working out his feelings with not being your number 1 priority?
Wierd with Jack waking every 2 hours...Eva has started waking for night feedings again too! She was sleeping for about two weeks from 930pm-630am and I got used to that too quickly! She has now started waking up every 4 hours at night and feeding every two in the day It is pretty taxing. Last night though she only fed at 12 and then back up at 6am, so I am hoping that she is starting to speace her feeds back out. I really need the sleep! I am blaming it on growth spurts. She has been "talking" a LOT more and entertaining herself so I think she is sharpening some skills there.
Alison, that poor little girl and her poor parents...I was going to complain about stuff (I'll get to that later) the other day and when I saw tha I just got so sad and went to cuddle my baby...I am not sure if you all remember but I had premature cervical opening around 26 weeks (I was put on pelvic rest and progesterone), and I kept thinking, my god, no matter how fat I am right now, I am so lucky to have a beautiful healthy baby! Don't feel bad about the gift, I am sure she will appreciate your kindness. That little angel left and maybe it is better than living her life brain damaged or god knows what else. I really have my heart out there with the parents. It is crazy how these stories hit home when you have a baby!
I got another one of the little creatures from the sophie the giraffe series...It is a little pink alien looking thing...I just didn't know if I should get it but since you girls are saying it is so great, I might get her sophie too! Always looking for a reason to buy more stuff!
Tilda, glad Matilda is calm while DH is not there...I always find that Eva is nuts when her dad is not around...like she knows it is the milk machine so she is more dramatic lololol...But happy to report that last night DH had a business dinner and she was on stellar behavior mode! I even got to bed around 930!!! I think they are getting to that golden baby age! I would love to see that hip seat when you get it - please post a photo if you can, that sounds cool!
Suz, I am glad you had a gorgeous bday- you deserve it super mom!
Rose, crazy lady with the camera??? What's wrong with that???!!! I think I know another one But one thing is for sure - when you look back at those photos and when Liam gets older, he'll never say anything negative about it! Plus you take gorgeous photos so your friends must be happy to come around with their babies! I always photograph my friends' babies too when they come and they are always so happy for that!
Beany, yes about the hips! My mat jeans press into my hip bones too and I can actually see that they are wider in the mirror...I hope I can get back into my old stuff as all my old jeans were tiiiight even when I was thinner - as for the hair, I lose a hairball the size of a small cat every time I have a shower...I have nothing left and am chopping it off when i get to New York. My hair is so long but now it is starting to look long and thin and that is not so cool - Excellent for the pro photos! I am getting some of Eva done in NYC at central park etc - my friend who did our wedding photos will give us a free session! Love him!
Lani, Jett is just fantastic I thought you FF? Are you also BF? Good idea on the candles...It would give you a nice little craft to do at home and get you some extra cash especially if they are well priced!
HI to everyone else that is MIA - Kanda, willow, sesame etc...
AFM - I have been getting really bad about my weight thing and have relaized that my PCOS is kicking back in, meaning my insulin resistance and hormonal imbalances...I am working out daily and still have massive cravings and don't lose anything. I get really hungry between meals and ignore that then get grumpy...(the insulin resistance cause the body to crave sugar so along with the normal BF sugar cravings I have that on top of it)...I am supposed to be on metformin and being on birth control controls the fluctuations and am on niether right now so am just stuck with this weight and modd swings and all the rest of the lovely hormonal issues.
So, I have been seriously conidering mixing in FF with Bf and eventually cutting out the BF at 6 months when she starts taking in more solids. I have been getting really depressed and crying about this issue and I feel so bad even considering it, but I feel so bad physically that I think this is going to get worse and worse if I don't take control of it. She also starts daycare in mid may, so I am not sure how manage pumping and daycare, although I know it is possible, just difficult.
My real issue is that I can't take any meds to regulate my hormones if I don't stop bf...I feel selfish for even considering it I know my baby's health comes first and I want so bad to continure until the end but it is becoming hard for me to be positive and happy with the ups and downs of PCOS and the weight that won't budge no matter how much I walk run train etc...I was fat as a teen and have never been naturally thin so this is bringing back a whole list of complex insecurities hat are affecting my relationship with DH and my general state - I am avoiding going out and all invitations from people and feel generally like hiding.
I am not really sure what to do. Eva is 4 months tomorrow and I will go to the pediatrician for her checkup and vaccine today, so I will bring along a list of questions re; breast feeding and immunity, whether I can take metformin while BF, when she can start solids and how much she'll be taking at what age (since if she takes some solids then I'll be able to BF less during the day so pumping won't be so bad - for the moment she is eating every two hours! I don't know how I will manage that pumping!)
She has been much better though and crying almost not at all int he evnings, just a bit fussy before bed because she is tired.
She is really adorable and making so much progress so fast! She rolls now and makes all these new sounds every day. It is really just so cute. I am feeling confident that by our trip to NYC she'll be easier to handle and will transition ok.
Anyway, baby's up so off to take a long walk with her (it is now 8am and since spring is coming it is light out) and get some stuff done before our friends arrive tonight (another We with friends)...last weekend was so nice since I had my friend Christine in from Switzerland and she really made me feel better and put me in a great mood
but I'll do my best!
(Only funny if you've seen Borat)...We are at about 3 times a week or so (this is average, so some weeks it is more like once!). But that is nothing like before...I was a once a day girl. Just too tired and feeling unatractive in general. DH says I'm ridiculous too but I still feel like that. It is hard to go through these shifts with our body and lifestyle and I think our DHs also need to adjust - i mean they watch us breast feed and give so much of our bodies to our babies, that maybe they need to readjust or get used to seeing us sexually? In any case, past few days I've been feeling the sex drive coming back up, so hoping to get back into the swing of things too...MY DH wants it all the time and I tend to want it less these days, but I feel that changing with the weather...
It is pretty taxing. Last night though she only fed at 12 and then back up at 6am, so I am hoping that she is starting to speace her feeds back out. I really need the sleep! I am blaming it on growth spurts. She has been "talking" a LOT more and entertaining herself so I think she is sharpening some skills there.
But one thing is for sure - when you look back at those photos and when Liam gets older, he'll never say anything negative about it! Plus you take gorgeous photos so your friends must be happy to come around with their babies! I always photograph my friends' babies too when they come and they are always so happy for that!
I know my baby's health comes first and I want so bad to continure until the end but it is becoming hard for me to be positive and happy with the ups and downs of PCOS and the weight that won't budge no matter how much I walk run train etc...I was fat as a teen and have never been naturally thin so this is bringing back a whole list of complex insecurities hat are affecting my relationship with DH and my general state - I am avoiding going out and all invitations from people and feel generally like hiding.
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