Hi Girls - sorry, been MIA for a couple of days! What a week! Thanks for all your lovely words re the funeral. I actually saw the piccies of the little bub yesterday, she was so tiny but very very cute. She just looked like a fully formed baby just tiny, she had a head of black hair too. She looked very peaceful. I found out a little more about the whole thing, apparently the placenta completely detached and the baby was without oxygen for over an hour by the time they got her out so she would have been quite possibly severely brain damaged if she had've survived so very sad either way. Apparently the mum is doing a lot better this week and has come to terms with everything, she just looks as it like Willow had more important things to do and that she was here to bring people together and make new friends. Isn't that lovely.

AFM - I stupidly tried to change my lovely working routine these past 2 days, I really need to stop listening to others! This routine I've been following has always worked and it suggests around 16-20 weeks to dry dropping the "dream feed" and have them in bed earlier, my friend does the same thing and her 5 month old is sleeping 12 hours and has been since she was 4 months old so I thought I'd give it a go. DISASTER CITY!!!!!!! She's quite fine with going 4 hours between feeds anyway - I just upped her amount which I've properly calculated for her weight - she either has 180 mls 5 times a day or 200 mls 4 times a day. Anyway, the first night I tried it she had her last feed at 7.30 pm (instead of the usual 9.00 or 9.30 pm).....she went straight to sleep as usual but woke 5 times through the night, not for food but just doing the whinge before the cry so I was up putting the dummy in all the time which is ridiculous! I was shattered yesterday as I'm not used to it. I didn't want to give up after one night so thought I'd try again, yesterday was fine again up until 5.30 pm when she went to sleep, for 2 hours (she normally sleeps on and off until her 6.00 pm feed but never that long)....I had to wake her at 7.30 pm - 5 hours after her last feed! Anyway, then she fed and didn't want to go back to sleep (normally she'd go to sleep pretty well straight away).....so by the time she went down it was 10.00 pm anyway!!!!!!! She woke 3 times from about 3.00 am on......better than the night before but still she normally goes all night, or only wakes once from about 4.00 am on but sleeps until 7.00 or 8.00 am - today she got up at 6.30 am. So, my point is, I've realised she's just not ready and like DH said, why does it matter if she's having 5 instead of 4 feeds, I know eventually she'll need to go to bed earlier as she gets older and more of a handful but I will do it gradually by bringing her dreamfeed earlier and earlier before eventually dropping it. Obviously cold turkey didn't work. I'd be crap at controlled crying too cause normally she dream feeds and goes to bed asleep but last night I tried putting her down awake...I only lasted 5 minutes before I got her up again lol!!!!!

Sorry for the novel girls, just had to get that all out. Gosh you just never know what the right thing to do is huh. All I know is I'm tired today and even Amelia doesn't look as well rested.

Oh and we are having our professional pics done this arvo.........I've woken up with a big coldsore in the middle of my lip, freaking fantastic!!!!!