Things are going great here... Anelise is such a precious little bubba who I just can't stop looking at! She is all giggly and cute now... I really love this stage
I am having a dilemma at the moment. I can't breast feed. I just can't. It doesn't work, Anelise hates even trying and pulls herself off my nipple so many times it just leaves me flustered and upset. I feel like I am constantly expressing and that is getting me down so much. I can't have anyone around me when I express as just a tiny bit of stress stops my flow and my nipples end up hurting... I am only able to express 150mls at a time now which is fine as that is how much Anelise has... but what about when she is drinking 250mls at a time? Urgh... I don't want to think about it.
The temptation to switch to formula is so strong right now. I selfishly would love to go back on my diet and lose my baby weight (ok, my 5 baby weight :blush but refuse to do it whilst I am expressing. I want to make it to at least 6 months but I'm not sure I will. I am really upset that breast feeding just isn't working at all for us and there doesn't seem to be anywhere I can turn to for support... I guess I have grieved for my breast feeding days and now I feel ok if I am to turn to formula... but I love knowing my baby girl is thriving on my breast milk! Arghhhhh! See my dilemma?
Annie also has reflux so we're using the karicare thickener stuff... but she seems to be so unsettled afterwards that I think there may be more to it, so I will need to take her to the Dr also.
Annie also gets her first lot of immunisations done tomorrow... I am sooooooooo glad DH will be here to hold my hand when it happens!
Lisa - sorry I have no advice for you but it sounds devastating. How did Annie's immunisations go? Did the doctor have anything interesting to say about her being unsettled?
MHB - Not thinking about another baby here. After my first I was keen to have another one pretty close. I was pg by the time DD was 4 months old (there is only 12 and a half months between DD1 and DS). It took my body a bit longer to be ready to get pg again after DS. Just be careful not to put too much pressure on yourself to get pg. It can be really difficult for the first few months after giving birth, even if you aren't bfing. It takes everything a while to go back to normal.
Easha - Has your supply settled down now overnight, or is it still pretty full on? I think that supply is meant to settle down around the 6 week mark, if not before. I have found that with every baby, my supply is settling down earlier on though.
AFM - We are doing really well at the moment. DD2 has an unsettled period each day but nothing too major. I absolutely adore her. I don't think I felt like I bonded with my other 2 babies like I am bonding with her, which is sad. With DD1, I was shell-shocked I think and I bonded very well with DS but this is even better again!
Last edited by Just Me; November 24th, 2009 at 02:32 PM.
TG - Apparently she has silent reflux We're to keep an eye on it and if it gets any worse she may need medication. The thickener is helping so much now though so that is great.
TG - there is no way we are trying for another year at least! also i got my period only 5 weeks after my c section while breastfeeding! just had my 2nd AF 29 days after my 1st so allready spot on! it sucks bigtime!
Lisa - my boy had that and now is on zantac and anti - lact karicare formula and all is better! also no more baby spew at all!
AFM - had a woman die on us in the coronary care unit today, i washed her body and put her in the body bag and watched the family say goodbye, then had a little cry in the staff room ive never felt so emotional before but now i have my son i think life means so much more to me and i had to come home and give him big hugs and kisses!
Lisa - you poor thing, just do what your heart is telling you. If you want to continue breastfeeding maybe call the breastfeeding association or see a LC?? I do understand where you are coming from. I have days were feeding is really hard and then remind myself I have 20 odd weeks of this to go - the next day picks up for me though. I support whatever decision you make - do what is right for you
MHB - yes life is so precious and you stop taking thinks for granted once you have a child I reckon. I see medical shows with sick babies and am so grateful Jaida is healthy. Great to hear the projectiles have ceased Thinking of a new bub already????? Me I remember the pain too vividly to even contemplate a new bub... 2011 is when we might consider trying again. Hopefully the memory has faded by then
Townsville girl - great to hear you have a strong bond with Xanthe. As for my milk - I was wearing a single to bed and although fitted I still had issues with pads moving and bb feeling really heavy. I bought a crop top (you know a sports top/bra thing) and that has atleast eleviated my frustration with repositioning the pads. The engorgement hasn't been that bad but I have also expressed before bed so maybe that's it. I wont express tonight as I am having a wine so will see whether this has made the difference.
AFM - am frustrated with expressing. I read one of you expressing 150 mls - I have expressed for the past 4 days and only have 100mls . It is very disheartening Any suggestions??
Jaida also had her immunisations yesterday and I was a blubbering mess..... she also had a fever the poor little thing. Glad its over for a few months atleast.
Easha - That's me that expresses 150mls. I usually do 200-250mls though. What are you using to express with? With Harrison, I used an Avent Isis and found I could barely cover the bottom of the cup with milk so this time around DH bought me a Medela Swing pump and it is brilliant. I also (try to) make sure I drink loads of water and I have been drinking Activite and eating the lactation cookies when I remember to make them. Basically the extra water is what seems to work for me... and to limit the amount of stress around me when I am expressing... if my kids come in and whinge or bicker I lose the flow and nothing comes out... when they leave me alone and I just read or watch TV I get a good flow happening and can get out 150mls in around 15-20mins.
but refuse to do it whilst I am expressing. I want to make it to at least 6 months but I'm not sure I will. I am really upset that breast feeding just isn't working at all for us and there doesn't seem to be anywhere I can turn to for support... I guess I have grieved for my breast feeding days and now I feel ok if I am to turn to formula... but I love knowing my baby girl is thriving on my breast milk! Arghhhhh! See my dilemma?
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sorry I have no advice for you but it sounds devastating. How did Annie's immunisations go? Did the doctor have anything interesting to say about her being unsettled?
We're to keep an eye on it and if it gets any worse she may need medication. The thickener is helping so much now though so that is great.
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