Angela - Emily sounds gorgeous! My little Harrison was a tiny little 10th centile bubba for ages! People used to ask me if he was born prem! lol
As for the settling through the day, do you have a silng? I love my HAB for the fact that I can carry Anelise around and still get things done. I don't think there is such a thing as being too soft with your bub when they're this age.. they don't cry to annoy or get attention, they cry because they're needing something (as I am sure you realise )
I always feel terrible when Anelise cries when I put her down as I know she just misses being next to me... afterall, I am all she knew for 9 months so I figure she just wants to be near me and feel something familiar.

I had the crappiest of crappy weekends

I am sure no one will, but I will ask for you all to please not judge me... I have beat myself up big time over what happened

On Saturday, my baby girl had her first and hopefully last ride in an ambulance

We were getting ready to go out to have lunch with my dad, who was visiting from Sydney. He was coming up here to meet Anelise for the first time. My DH, DS1, Harrison & Anelise were all in the loungeroom, which is just off our kitchen. Chooky & I were in the kitchen preparing the little esky with ice packs and bottles of EBM.
DH had put Anelise down on the fold out bit of Harry's flip out foam lounge thingy while he cleaned Harry's face up as he had icing all over it.
Anelise started to have a little sook, so DS1 picked her up. All of a sudden, Anelise started screaming. DH asked if she was due for a feed and I said no as she'd only had one an hour previously.
I went in and took Anelise from DS1 and noticed that when he was holding her, her arm was in a funny position. I worried and stripped her clothes off her. When I got down to her singlet, I noticed her shoulder didn't look right. I have never seen a dislocated shoulder on anyone in real life, but this looked like the dislocations I have seen on TV. I panicked and got DH to call the ambulance as I didn't want to risk moving her arm to put her in her car seat.
While waiting for the ambulance to arrive, we gave DD some EBM, but the 000 operator told us to stop giving it to her. The wait felt like it went forever. The ambulances arrived, 2 of them and the officers looked her over and agreed she should at least go get xrayed. Poor DS1 was beside himself.. crying and feeling so guilty! I felt awful that he was blaming himself. DH cuddled DS1 and then hopped into the ambulance with Anelise. I gathered everything up that I thought we may need and then got DS1 and explained to him that it wasn't his fault, anyone could have done what was done and for him to not blame himself. I gave him a hug and left him here with DD1. My dad was on his way over.
I put Harry in the car and rushed off to the hospital.

The xray woman was horrid. Just plain freaking awful. She yanked Anelise's arm into different positions... Anelise was screaming in pain, my boobs were leaking from hearing her screams and my face was flooded with tears. They had to call DH in to take over as I was an absolute mess. The Xray woman picked Anelise up, didn't support her head or shoulder, and it was like she didn't give 2 hoots that Annie had a sore shoulder at all. Anelise had this great lump on top of her shoulder between her shoulder joint and her neck, so it was obvious there was some kind of injury. Anyway the xray woman got her shots and we were sent into the pediatric emergency section to wait for the results. Annie had a BF and a sleep. After about an hour she was all smiles & giggles.
The xray results came back and they said there were "No gross deformities" so no breaks or dislocations. It seems that she has probably got a muscular injury
I don't know... if Anelise did have a dislocation, I am sure the xray woman would have popped it back in by the way she was yanking on her little arm.

Urgh! Today Anelise is still happy, smiley & giggly but she still has the lump on her shoulder. We're more than likely going to get a 2nd opinion done either this afternoon or tomorrow... Anelise isn't worried by it though and we can easily dress her, she moves her arm around lots and sleeps with her arms above her head as always, but I am still worried. My poor little bubba!