I've been here, but just had loads on my mind plus a piddly head cold/sinusitis so can't think straight which is making it super hard to get the assignment finished that is due tomorrow.

Easter was OK, but a bit ****ty. I spent all last week getting Mum's DP's will organised for him - thankfully our Solicitor was happy for me to go in with a list of his intentions and he did up a will that I was able to take out to him to sign because he's been bedridden since his chemo treatment 3 weeks prior. I got him to sign it on Wednesday, which was the day he had to go for his next round, so I knew he would be lucid (the 50mg of oxycontin twice a day has kept him pretty stoned!) and its a good thing I did because he was admitted to hospital that day and they couldn't go ahead with his chemo because his left kidney has failed, he was severely dehydrated and his bloods didn't look great. So if he has improved after the next lot of bloods tomorrow then he might be able to have the chemo, but if his oncologist isn't happy with the results, then this is the end of it no more can be done for him. I honestly don't think that it is worth him having it anyway. The chemo isn't going to cure him, only prolong his life but his quality of life is so bad atm who would want it to last longer kwim? Mum is run rugged to the point where her sugar is way up again (20!) and she is over it - not him, but over all the calls from his older kids, his first wife (Don't even ask about that LOL) and every other tom **** and harry who just want the gossip but can't be stuffed actually visiting. She is trying to organise a carer's pension because she has givin up work again and his medical cert runs out at the end of next month so I have been trying to take some of the burden off her, going over and sitting with him so she could go into town and get paperwork sorted out etc. As much as i don't want this to end for obvious reasons, I wish it would hurry up and be over kwim? Mum is at the point where she can't look after him properly with him being completely bedridden, so she would prefer he stay in hospital for longer so she can get herself sorted out but he wants to come home. Not only that she has had all 4 of his sisters staying with her, plus my sister and niece, so the house is just bedlam. We had planned that because he was in hospital that Mum would stay home easter saturday and his sisters would spend the day with him in hospital, but 10 minutes before I got there she had to go to the hospital because he wanted her there and she didn't get back till nearly 6pm, which I can understand, but at the same time I am being the petulant child and having a sulk about it because the kids are missing out on seeing her because of it kwim? I can't say anything to Mum because she feels bad enough as it is So everything is just crap atm.

Sorry to have to lay it all on you guys but i think DH is sick of me talking about it