thanks for all your reassurances ladies. glad i'm not the only one
md- you're so right (as usual) about the transition i've gone through. i honestly feel like my whole chemistry has changed and it's hard to identify with people who only knew the old me. i like the way you reminded me that other people would've changed too, i guess it's just hard when i feel like i've changed so much physically as well as mentally. oh and i don't think your youth is that far behind you, you still seem pretty youthful to me

trill- yeah i really identify with the whole 'let yourself go' thing. i hate it so much!! and tbh, if i really wanted to lose the weight, i know i could. it's just that part of me really doesn't see it as important. i'm healthy and do a bit of exercise here and there, but i just love food! i have to say that since i've been this shape i don't ever binge eat or drink anymore which i used to do heaps. i just don't need to do it now that i'm not obsessing about food. i really doubt anyone thinks your dh is married to a fatso. you're gorgeous!

cass- yeah i think i need to start making more of an effort with myself, but like you say, it's so hard with no time or money. i haven't been to the hairdressers for 6 months! and geeez i'd kill for a facial

suz- when are you going to ttc #3?

thanks for all your kind words friends, i'm feeling a lot better today