Well i have not been feeling very flash lately since sil had her baby as my style of mothering is a complete 180 on mil's and sil's ideas on how babies should be managed - think old ways versus new ......... not that its a competition but I am ALWAYS made to feel bad about my choices.

ANYHOO, so DH and I had been talking about the state of our "lack of" relationship - it has dwindled by the wayside since DD was born, mainly because at the end of the day I am exhausted and really not in the mood, besides, I have been too frightened in case it hurt after my stitches.

Last night we decided to have a little adult fun as DD went down early so we're there and I am playing jockey (if you catch my drift) and I swear I couldn't do it ....... I got a little way in and OH THE PAIN ...... I think the Dr stitched me up a little far not only did it sting like crazy but I couldn't get it to go in.

I ended up in tears and poor DH has been so deprived for ...... well ......... since we found out we were pregnant with DD

I feel awful .... I want to go back to the Dr who did my stitches and ask her to give me back a cm of myself so I can have some fun with hubby serisouly a whole friggin cm.

DH thought it was funny and started the whole "like a virgin" sing along which made me feel worse.

Will I ever stretch again? Will I have to go back and get "opened" a little more? Am I the only one who's Dr thought she'd be doing me a favour?

Is there something I can do to help myself stretch again.

I honestly feel like I am the biggest failure right now, first my parenting choices, now I cannot please my man ........ what next?

Nae