Hi Bindy
i know exactly what you're talking about.
my mum died 6 weeks before i fell (accidently) pregnant and both my dp and i believe that she was responsible for our beautiful little gift
it is really bittersweet isn't it? cos now you understand how much your dad must have really really loved you...cos of how much you really really love your dd now. i never really got it before, but now i do.
sometimes i look at my ds and get so sad that my mum never got to meet him and hold him..but somehow i just think she knows, you know...and she's so much a part of him. i think she gave him to me to help me to survive without her.
i believe madeleine can see her pa. he's a part of her...