Hmmmm..... Lulu, I tried to serach for a good site for you... one that is not about death and evil and it is hard to do! I did find one that is pretty good.....
For new Satanists

Not disgusting, and talks bout the myths that go along with satanism, the origins of satanism, and why 'modern' satanism is a corruption of traditional satanism.

P.S. You're definately not a nerd.