Aww sweetie! I'm so sorry. Don't feel silly, it was a baby and that's all that matters. It doesn't matter if it was your first or subsequent, it was your baby and your hurting. It's not too late to tell your closest friends! I'm sure they'll comfort you, forgetting that it happened a small while ago, because it's still upsetting you. But it doesn't go away, so I don't see why they wouldn't support you for many months to come. BB and the members on here are very helpful and comforting & will help you get through it (: TC