I echo all the thoughts of the other ladies here. I know you probably find it hard to believe, because I have been there & sometimes still am, but you haven't done anything to lose 6 babies, it's nobodys fault. They just aren't ready to join you & your family yet. Why this is, I don't know.... I wish I knew b/c then I would have the same questions answered for me. And you are not chasing an impossible dream, you are trying to fulfill one that isn't quite ready to formulate yet.

I think you should tell your DH, not just for the support you need, but he has a right to know - it is his baby too. And if his response is the same as it has been in the past, at least he knows and he might start to understand your emotions atm.

Don't feel awful for not being able to deal with baby/pg announcements - you have a right to deal with your emotions how you want & need to & if that means shutting yourself away from that sort of stuff, then do it. There is nothing worse than pretending to be happier than you are for someone - it only makes what you are going through harder to deal with later on.

Have you thought about counselling, for your grief? I went once & found it helped to release the tension, anger, sadness & work through the grief.

I'm also sorry to hear about your Dad & your first angel baby and that this loss is bringing up those painful memories.

I hope you find peace soon. x