Hot day here today so have to have the doors/windows open and even over music/tv/movies I can hear the neighbours new born crying.

My best friend is having her baby on friday (c/s) so I can't tell her about the m/c, I'm dreading the text from her DH, I'm happy for them I just don't want to hear about it right now, I feel like such an awful friend.

Is it bad that I now don't want to tell DH because I know his reaction, well lack of reaction will upset me? Why do I let it bother me that he's never cried over our losses but balled his eyes out when his sister lost her baby? I feel so ashamed for even thinking about it.