ClareBear28 - Oh I am so sorry for the loss of your angel . Your story is almost the same as mine. I too had an ruptured ectopic, coolasped 3 times , had blood transfussion also and almost died - though I only lost my right tube... I had a lap also and have a nice scar!! Make sure you rest and take it easy - I know easier said than done... but each day gets a little easier... give yourself time to grieve, cry, get angry, what ever makes you feel better... I went on to have a beautiful baby boy Aiden and yes the whole pregnancy was scary and I had bleeding BUT we came through it in the end... if you need anything at all please PM xxxx

sandygirl - Babe I am too sorry for the loss of your angel and the scary time that you have been through, like I said to Clarebear28 please give yourself time to heal not only physically but emotionally.. I hated the world for a long time!! And was fed up of people saying oh it wasn't meant to be, or you wern't that far along -blah blah - ohh it made me angry regardless of the stage of pregnancy it was our buba that we lost. If you need anything at all too please PM xxxxx