Hello All,

I'm a first timer on this forum but hope that telling you my story might ease the pain that I'm feeling.

I gave birth to my son Alexander last Monday. Following a healthy pregnancy, Alex was born 3 days before his due date. We had geared up for this day and were fully prepared for the labour, as this is our second son.

I only felt a few movements on Sunday morning but assumed that all had quietened down by the afternoon as I was experiencing contractions. When we got to the hospital I was hooked up to the ECG to monitor our baby. When they had difficulty finding the heartbeat, they tried a scalp probe. Finally an ultrasound revealed the unimaginable. Alex had died. The midwives were as shocked as we were.

Following a long labour, Alex was born at 8:36am on Monday 28th April. We are still in a state of shock. It is so hard to believe that this has happened. I'm feeling so alone and desperate. The funeral is on Wednesday and I truly don't know how on earth we are going to get through it.

Trying to recover physically and emotionally - will this ever end?