Baby Alexander - born and died 28-04-08

[Rowie]

Danek

Although my journey is different to yours I understand the statement that you will never be the same person. You wont be, you will grow in yourself from this experience. You have come to the right place for support, the members on BB are rocks for each other.

Take care of you.

[danek]

Hello Again,

We are getting the autopsy results tomorrow. Its taken over six weeks before all the results are finally back. I feel as though I am losing the plot. I've never felt so worked up in all my life. What if the results are bad? What if I find out it was something I did during the pregnancy? What if it is a genetic factor and we are advised not to have any more children? What if the results offer us no explanation at all?

This nervousness is just welling up within me - please hurry up tomorrow! I just want it over and done with.

[aussienic]

I will be thinking of you :hugs: I hope you get results of some kind that can help put your mind at ease

[Lynn]

Thinking of you tomorrow I hope you get some answers so you know why you lost Alex but hope it is an answer you are comfortable with.

[~clover~]

Good luck tomorrow. Whatever happens I hope it helps you in some way.

[melham74]

Just wanted to say I will be thinking of you tomorrow

[danek]

Well we did it. I think the lead up was worse than the actual appointment.

The results were inconclusive. A little frustrating but we knew that there was a good chance that this would be the case.

I don't know why you left us Alex - I guess we will never have a reason why such a big, strong and lively baby throughout the pregnancy could suddenly be stolen away.

A bit of a blow when we got home today. Hubby told me he is not ready to try for another baby. To be honest, the thought of another baby has really kept me going over the last wee while. I know this has to be a joint decision so I'm a little shattered that he feels this way.

Healing? Yes. But feeling very bruised and battered tonight.

Danek