Well we did it. I think the lead up was worse than the actual appointment.

The results were inconclusive. A little frustrating but we knew that there was a good chance that this would be the case.

I don't know why you left us Alex - I guess we will never have a reason why such a big, strong and lively baby throughout the pregnancy could suddenly be stolen away.

A bit of a blow when we got home today. Hubby told me he is not ready to try for another baby. To be honest, the thought of another baby has really kept me going over the last wee while. I know this has to be a joint decision so I'm a little shattered that he feels this way.

Healing? Yes. But feeling very bruised and battered tonight.

Danek