I am really sorry to hear of your losses. It's so tough, I think especially when endo is involved (i too have battled with the horrid thing)...many many hugs to you
Ali so sorry for your losses and your pain... I can relate somewhat, as this year I suffered an ectopic and last week discovered our baby's heart had stopped beating at 8.5 weeks...and I had a D&C on Tuesday. It followed two IVF cycles and we are devastated.
I just want you to know that you aren't alone...people here can help if you need to vent...and surround yourself with supportive people.
Loss is so hard and you need time to grieve and be gentle with yourself. In time it will get easier and the pain will ease. In the meantime, let the range of emotions you are no doubt feeling just roll through you.... I hope that when you are ready and the time is right for you, you will fall pregnant with your second healthy child.
Ali - I am so sorry to hear of your losses, and back to back losses are terribly difficult. I had two losses in a row, one in Oct 06 & Sep 07. We actually did some tests after our second loss as I was quite hesitant to try again until I knew everything was ok as I just couldn't face another loss. After all of the tests and a 4 month break (which didn't really give us any answers or even clues) we tried again (this time I took clomid) and it seems we're third time lucky.
My heart really goes out to you - the pain I remember going through was just unbearable and it brings a tear to my eye to know that there are lots of other people who go through it (and worse).
I found having a really supportive & capable ob/gyn really helped us believe that we would have a forever baby one day.
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