Having never used a forum site before to vent my feelings i am so overwhelmed and touched by the kindness of complete strangers. Having no friends that i can turn to who would possibly understand and a husband whom is dealing with it all in his own way i was starting to feel very alone and scared. Thankyou to those that have read my story - i aplogise for it being so long. And big hugs to those that have sent encouraging and kind words.
Hugs to you all