To be honest, today and well most of the last week I've not been doing so well. I have been having the most insane mood swings. Things that have never bothered me before are making me ridiculously angry or burst into tears. My poor boyfriend is walking on egg shells and has even started to avoid me at times.
Then today I got my period. I knew logically it was going to happen, the doctor confirmed miscarriage and put me back on the pill but seeing it today has just gutted me. It guess it explains the moods - although I've NEVER had mood swings or PMT before. I am so sad because it means the baby is definitely gone but a part of me is relieved as well if that makes sense. I don't think I could go through the postive tests then pregnancy discussions again so soon.
Phil (my boyfriend) is being great but we've still only been together for 7 weeks and everyone has their limits of what they can put up with or handle. I'm tearing his head off for stupid things like not seeing me enough and hanging out with his friends and family instead of me or ripping into him about a text message which I've taken the wrong way or read too much into. So much so last night he said he wanted to send me something naughty but was unsure because I didn't react well the last time.
Are these moods normal? This isn't me - this has never been me. I keep telling myself you're being psychotic, pull your head in but I can't seem to stop myself.
Reply With Quote
Bookmarks