Hi moana.
I had an ectopic 2 years ago. I have since had another baby, but I still feel very deep sorrow for the baby that never got a chance to live.

I dont think you ever will or should forget your little one.

There is a website especially dealing with ectopic loss, and has a forum. Google 'ectopic trust UK'.

My only advise is to talk online or with a councellor etc, it helped me a lot to be able to just talk about my feelings and have a good few cries. Give yourself permission to grieve, even if those around you do not understand how hard this is for you.

Aroha nui