EDD IDeas? (also having a vent)

[~Aveta~]

Hi there
My EDD is coming up in March, and the closer it comes to it, the more real my loss seems to me. Actually thinking that I should have been bringing my little one home
in nearly a months' time is just breaking my heart.

I'm a bit confused also what to do on my EDD. From one side, I want to stay home mark this day somehow, and on the other have if I do that, then all I will end up doing is sitting at home and crying, and I really don't want to do that. This day marks my baby's Date of Birth after all, which should have been one of the happiest days in my life. And I just don't understand why would I get robbed of it! I mean how many ladies there are there who give birth and don't even look after their children, because they never wanted them in the first palce, how many chidlren are being born into the drug addict families, just so their parents can get the Government benefits to buy more drugs. Why doesn't God jsut give thsoe children to people like me or any other woman on here, who cherish their chidlren more than anythign in their lives? Where's the balance?
I found out the other day that one of my old classmates, who has been using drugs for a long time has given birth to a child with no arms and has given him up to an orphan house! And that just tipped it off! Why on Earth would you you send this poor child to Earth, who will suffer for the rest of his life? Why didn't her body "dealt naturally" with a bad pregnancy instead of mine? Why couldn't this child be sent to me and be born perfectly healthy and have a normal life?

Anyway, I apologize for my angry post, but I had to get it out somehow. I just wanted to get some ideas/experiences of what you do on your EDD to make it not so miserable.

Thank you...

some good things come of ppl who give their babies up. my DF was adopted out due to his birth parents being major substance abusers. he has never desired to meet his birth parents, because his adoptive parents have loved and cherished him and made him into the fine man he is today, the man who has been my rock thru the worst week of my life, in and out of hospital all week after my m/c and botched D&C. a good friend of mine is fostering three siblings of a family of 11 children, all in care..the mother demanded the newest back so she could claim the baby bonus. needless to say my friend didn't give in !!! another lady i know has five disabled children...and somehow manages to get sympathy and help all round !!!
all i can say is i hope for a baby for you asap. i'm sending you prayers.

DF and i planted a tree outside our bedroom window for joshua, and i must add that after my first husband bullied me into a termination, i didnt heal, depite having a live baby two years after, up until almost eight years after the termination date when i planted a special lily for that child. i ordered the bulb from victoria, and when i opened the box it was the size of a newborn baby's head....i could finally grieve then.