I so understand where you are right now. Life isn't fair.

For my EDD last August my mum travelled down for the day and we went out for lunch and went to Mass with my husband. It meant we marked the occasion (which was very important to us) but it also meant I didn't mope all day. Just last Friday was the anniversary of my baby's death and I decided I was well and truly through with feeling sad all the time, after all my babies were such a gift to me and my husband even though we only had them for a short time. So instead of celebrating an anniversary, we celebrated a birthday. I went into town and hubby and I went to Mass together, then after tea that night (take out) we had birthday cake and went out on a date to the movies.

Although I always dread these days as they approach, I always find them to be such positive experiences for me emotionally. After months of grief my EDD was a real turning point for me. I felt like I could move on.

My advice is: do something (doesn't matter what) and don't do it alone.