You are amazingly strong for sharing your story with us, thankyou. There is nothing anyone can say to make you feel any better, just know that there are so many people on here that will give you a wonderful amount of support through such a horrible time.
Like the others have said, do whatever it takes to get you through.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband.

Rest in Peace little Edward your Mummy and Daddy love you soooo much