Im so sorry for your loss Hon, your story brings back so many memories for me, I was in your place, wow, almost 3 years ago now.
I dont think there is any proper amount of grief or mourning for ANY type of loss, everyones deals with these things differently, an early loss is still a loss and to you that baby was a baby, your head and heart were full of joy and dreams and planning and thinking what would happen....and now suddenly that is gone....I know how hard that is, Im glad you have support IRL, BB is fantastic in this instance too. Thats how I found BB.
Keep talking, having your own thread is a good thing, posters can keep up to date with whats going on with YOU, and any time you need , just pour your heart out.
Big hugs for you, take your time to heal. xxx RIP little angel...fly free... xx