Feeling a bit down today, it's one month since my m/c. Just feeling really sad and disappointed on all that I am missing out on.
I don't think DP even realises what day it is and why I am a bit moody. I don't really think I should have to explain it to him, he should know.
Perhaps I am being a bit harsh, he's not a mind reader and I do shut him out a lot.

Being a bit teary and reflective has made me realise that I am a bit ... well a lot scared about TTC again. I've suffered a lot of loss in my life over the last 10 years, the main one being my mum at 18. For me any loss in my life is compounded, feel like I am grieving for her all over again, it's times like this that I really miss her.
I'm not sure where I would find the strength to go through this again, the reserves are getting low.

IRL I really am a, I guess closed person. I don't give much away about how I am feeling. It's nice to be able to get it out here.

..Laura